Saya kene KUAT!

There's a lot of stories I feel like I want to share to all here.. Soo many ideas and tips that I'm eager to tell you guys... But, unfortunately I was sick and having fever at almost 39 temp for the last 4 days... I'm flat and headache seriously... uhuhuu... no energy and no apetite to eat.. hrmmm... kesian saya...

Alhamdulillah so far my son and daughter are doing fine.. hopefully they wont affected by me, although my husband also now starting to feeling2 demam jugak.. hrmmm, sabar yer bang oiii..

It's been not very productive week, last week... long time not updating these blog, long time not follow up with my customer, walk and talk pon tak penah buat jgk... nevermind... cuti-cuti ni, mungkin kene bagi chance for me to just lay down, rest and golek2 with the kids...

Biler lagi nak dapat rest macam ni... once dah fully recovered, I need to get back straight up and move fast! Anyway, working and business at the sametime... surely and clearly its not easy... U need to be really tough, mentally and physically... must be very strong and determined!

Honestly, sometimes I felt like...

"kenapa aku kene bersusah payah, kerja keras macam ni?"

"serabut kan kepala nak pikir pasal bisnes laaa kan.."

"nak kene travel KL-Kertih selalu.. nak attend event and training slalu.. buat letih badan aje"

"baik la saya duduk goyang kaki, layan drama kat tv ke, pegi jalan2 shopping ke, pegi layan movie kat panggung ke, lepak ngan kengkawan kt mall ke, lagi banyak syok"

"baik aku tido jelaaa dari peningkan kepala pikir pasal bisnes semua ni, kenapa nak menyusahkan diri"

Tetapi... saya cepat-cepat pikir balik dalam-dalam...

Now HARDIANA! REMEMBER what is your goal!!!

I want to make a difference! I want to improve myself! I want to be a better person! I want to change my life now!

Ok, kalau saya cepat mengalah dan jatuh semangat sekarang... apa bezanya saya dan orang-orang lain di luar sana?? betol tak??

Can I change my life by just sitting at home and doing nothing?

Can I make a difference by go out and have fun, watch movie in the cinema and lepak2 with friends?

Can I improve myself and become a better person by just wasting time, sleeping and watch tv at home?

Answer is NO! BIG NO!

Saya mesti kuat, Saya mesti determine, Saya mesti serius berusaha, Saya mesti tidak mudah putus asa! Prinsip saya ialah, SAYA MESTI RASA LETIH dan PENAT, baru lah saya tahu, I AM DOING SOMETHING towards my goal.. Baru lah saya tahu ok, although I am slow but I'm still on the right track..

But whatever it is, tired ke, exhausted ke, I'm enjoying every bit of this experience! I'm happy of what I'm doing right now! I get that self-satisfaction! SAYA RASA PUAS! Alhamdulillah...

Today, I found this lyric video of the song call "One Day", sang by Charice.. Love every details of this lyric...Inspiring baybeh =)
Enjoy the vid!!!

With Love.. HHH