My Son.. Muhammad Hafiy Bin Azmi

On 2nd June 2009, 6.38PM at Prince Court Medical Centre, a cute baby boy was born by Hardiana Haris. He was named Muhammad Hafiy Bin Azmi..

..the experience.. the journey.. the moment that i've gone thru on that 2nd June.. was too priceless, too speechless to describe, sooo....... unforgetable..

that 2nd June... had made me think a lot... thought me a lot.... hrmmmm (my tears dropping..)

everytime i remind back that '2nd June'.......... my heart was so touched.... it make me realised on soo many things..... ooouuhh dear, i don't know where to start.... (emo terlebey plak...hmmm)

on 2nd June 2009, 12.15am... me and my sister was just about to sleep.. mmg baru jer tutup lampu bilik tido and baring di katil... suddenly i felt something just came out from my bottom... i screamed "Ja!! kakyung dah water break la! alamak... byk nie... air keluar byk giler nih... ooouuhh gosh! camne nih".... i start to panicking and screaming... my sis lagi la... dia terus lompat bgn dari katil, switch on the lights and help me up from the bed... she saw my night dress dh lenjun giler, katil basah air melimpah2.... apa lagi, then she screamed plak "mama!!! kakyung nyer air ketuban dh pecah! cepat2!! nk buat camne ni?!! alamakkk...." my mom keluar dr bilik dia dgn muka2 org br bgn tido and muka terperanjat terus soh sumer siap cepat and bring me to hospital... then i grab a clean dress and slowly walk to toilet to change, masa tuh i can hear my sis and my mom plak kepoh mencari pakaian2 dalaman dan luaran mereka utk bersiap ke hospital jgk.. im in the toilet, changing and laughing.. coz it was soo funny to see everyone so panicked and rushing ere there...

ok.. semua dh siap changing clothes, i walk slowly to the car outside, mama dh ready dlm kereta... air ketuban still mencurah2 keluar.. i was a bit wondering laaa, apsal byk giler air ketuban nih... meleleh2 tak henti... in the car also, abis basah lenjun... thank god keta merc papa tuh leather sit... masa nih contraction pain blum ada, i can still smile and laughing lagik.. sampai jerk di PCMC, depan pintu ER... ada few staff came out with bed stroller tuh and ask me to lay down.. ask me who's my doctor and what time the waterbreaks.. the ER staff trus send me to 6th floor, labor room..

1.30am 2nd June, im in the labor room with mama and my sis fiza... mama already called my hubby (who at that time at Taman Negara, Pahang ada team building) and also my father, informed that i've already in the labor room and had waterbreak.. after settle check in kt labor room sumer, 2 nurses came in and want to check my bottom, how many cm dh bukak.. and it seems baru 1.5cm... okay.. so, there's still time.. the nurses called my doctor to informed her n i called my hubby.. just dont want him to rush, drive slowly...

hrmm... after few hours... my contractions pain start to build up... by 5am i guess, my sweet hubby arrived... ouuhh, how glad i am to see his face.... that time contraction pain mmg bley tahan lagi la... chit-chat jap with hubby, then told him to get some sleep...

8am, my doctor, doctor Seri Suniza came in to check me... she said now its only 3cm bukaan.. so, she told me to get rest and relax jer dlu, its still a long journey lagi... ok, im fine with it... but cuma kesian kan my hubby and sis and mama yg lama sgt stay and accompany me... klo ikutkan hati nk jer paksa my sis and mom balik rumah and rest jer kt umah dlu... just let hubby sorg tunggu... lagipon, diorg duk situ lagi buat aku anxious and risaukan diorg... aku bukan risaukan diri aku, but aku risaukan diorg collapse lak nanti kerana keletihan... btol gak sket2 apa doctor ckp, diorg berdiri kulu kilir ada la sket2 menyumbang ke perasaan anxious aku... not that they giving me stress, but they worried me with their health... aku nie mmg jenis yg xsuka menyusahkn org... but, they insist to stay jgk... bdn aku pon dh getting weaker, so aku malas nk tegur2... but i understand, if i were at their place, mybe i also do the same thing.. yela, saper nk blk n realx tdo di umah.. sure xsenang hati nyer tgk 'kakak' or 'anak' tgh sakit kt hospital ait.. hrmmm...

now dah 3pm, my contraction pain was seriously out of words mmg sakit giler2! its almost 9 hours im in contraction pain.. a nurse check me again and said bukaan dah reach 5-6cm.. its a good progress, she said.. but still not enuf and hv to wait lagi.. my body dh weak giler2, ive lost enery a lot.. seriously a lot and my body temprature pon naik, ada demam sket... so, ive decided to take epidural bcoz cannot bear the pain lagi... dpt epi, rasa relief la sket, the pain reduce to 20% la kot..

then by 5pm, i'm sreaming every 10 mins bcoz of the pain! its getting worse and worse.. the epi is no more working lagi... then my doctor came and check me again.. she said it still 6cm or cud be 7cm.. they actly want me to wait until 10cm bcoz my baby is to big.. the doc also didnt feel the baby's head coming down yet.. oouuhh, gosh, how tired i am.... i cudn't wait anymore, every 10mins my contractn pain was at peak.. and my body weakening.. my husband cudnt bear to see me in pain, screaming n crying... he ask the doctr can we just proceed for c-sec bcoz he see me too weak.. after some discsn, the doc agreed to proceed for c-sec and the reason being is poor progress..

i was given epidural from my above waist until my toe for the operation.. then i was pushed into the OT room, my hubby was with me... he stand besides me, holding my hands... at that time, i was really really reaaally tired... all i think was, plsss hurry and just finish this all up... im soooo weak and tired..... by 6.38pm... i can hear the baby voice crying... ooooohh, how glad i am to hear the baby is safe... and after a while i can hear my husband sang azan to him, how wonderful.... before they took the baby to the nursery, they showed the baby to me... at that moment i felt sooo soooo much relief, all the pain had gone away from my mind.. its all worth it.... one drop of tears fall down frm my cheek.. and i kissed my precious baby... then they took him away..

after the doctors and surgrn settle with me at the OT, they brought me back at labor room.. there was my mom, sis and hubby... i cud bearly open my eyes bcos too tired... after few mins, a nurse send my baby to me for bfeeding.. now finally i can hold my own baby on my arms feed him with my breast milk... what a wonderful moment.. altho im still tired after the operation, i brave myself use the strength that i hv left and feed him...

overall..... this total experience had really thought me a lot.. i can see how much my husband really reaaaally cared about me... he'd sacrifice a lot for me.. and i can see how deep is his love to me... the truth is, i was really surprise with Azmi Ruhani yg sekarang... that's y everytime i remember him, my tears are dropping.... he had done a lot... accompanying me 24hrs.. making sure that im okay, and still can put a smile on his face for me.. altho i know how tired he is... during my warded, he took a good care of me and our baby... i can see the excitement in his face when he hold the baby in his arms.. he kisses him, hold him tightly and called his name "hafiy..hafiy..."

tak boleh nk digambarkn perasaan mcm mana melihat hubby bermain dgn bby... and at the same time smiling at me... bersyukur sgt... aku bersyukur sgt punya suami yg begitu penyayang dan sgt memahami... hari terakhir dia di umah ibu ku, sblm bertolak blk ke Kertih.. dia mencium pipi ku... aku pon apa lg.. menitik la air mata... it was soo sad to see him leaving me... and of cos i will be missing him so badly...

Now, im officially a mommy... and now there's no more the two of us.. but.. the three of us.. me and hubby are so happy giler2, super duper excited with the born of Muhammad Hafiy.. mummy and daddy doakan Hafiy akan jadi anak yg soleh dan baik yer... we both love you very much... also Opah and Atok love u upmost... and also acik Nja love u soo much, eternity.. not forget acik Inji and acik Ngah care a lot bout u dear...

Muhammad Hafiy Bin Azmi... ~xoxo~